When I began this series of essays, I thought my life was hectic and crazy enough. I was nearing the end of college, unprepared to take on the real world, and preoccupied with what that would even look like. I was prepared to write a series of essays that focused on those concerns. I was writing about the future, which at the time felt daunting and unclear. I wanted to begin to answer and articulate the questions that were swirling in my head. What will my professional life look like? How and which friendships will change, evolve, grow, disappear? Should I start thinking about having children, given my family’s history? Will I leave Michigan feeling like I got everything out of my experience on campus, socially, academically, and personally?

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Hectic doesn’t even begin to describe what my (and everyone’s) life looks like now. I thought I was all over the place a month ago, I had no idea what was coming my way. The first essay, the one I wrote about fertility, was written in a time of relative normalcy. In my ideal world, I would take a month off after school, fly back to LA and go through the egg freezing process. As a planner, that seemed like an appropriate and doable approach. Not only does that not seem like a viable option at the moment, but it is nowhere near the top of my “things to worry about” list.

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The reality is that my head was in a totally different place when I wrote that essay. But, I am happy it was. It provides insight into what I was thinking before a global pandemic took over the world. But, what it does change is how the subsequent essays will look and sound. I am no longer stuck in my head dreading the end of college, but rather am facing that reality abruptly and without warning. I am happy that I managed to complete one essay prior to the apocalypse, but I would be remiss if I didn’t address the elephant in the room. Further, I would be naïve to pretend that the following essays are solely reflective of my general college experience/life. While I hope that they can still explore important questions, I have to face the fact that I am seeing everything through corona-colored glasses. Well…